I'm still playing it cool on the outside but inside I'm really hurting. Today I my bday and I don't expect a wish from my wife...but I do from d18. At least a text. Well the day is not over yet.

Maybe she forgot she's got lots of things in her mind. Or maybe because of the M that doesn't show any affections anymore...idk I'm just feeling down about it. But this is my choice, I chose to stay and stand on my M. I have a choice to get out but I haven't.

Got to go to work. I'll try to get my mind off it and just think just a regular day.

Newman

me40; W43
M18; T~20
D18; S13 & S3
bomb 5/9/11
EA busted 4/30/12; 9/4/12; 4/29/13; 6/10/13 same OM

Separated 4/1/14

"Even a flicker of light will shine through darkness-12/25/2012"....better days ahead.