I haven't posted in a few days, but I have been following...just kinda wondering if I'm doing something wrong here, as I've not had much action on my post...
Anyways, GAL is going well. I'm really surprised at how easily I can find things to do that interest me, now that I've gained a little distance from BD. I still feel a little hesitant or guilty at times, when I'm out enjoying myself, but for the most part I'm having some fun. Meeting up with a men's group periodically just for some camaraderie, and that's been good. I've also begun to reconnect with some friends, which is great. There's a lot of catching up to do.
180's are going well, but I find it's hard to concentrate on all of the 'me' stuff all at once. I'm thinking it's okay to work on little bits at a time? Anyways, I'm working out consistently now, which is a big change from the recent past. I'm actually starting to appreciate the guy I see in the mirror, and that feels good. I'm much more observant, and I listen a whole lot better than ever before, so conversations seem a whole lot better now, and I get a lot more done. There's a lot more I need to work on, but I think I just need to slow down a bit, not sure though?
As for the sitch, nothing much has changed...I can see now that I probably over-reacted to the positive exchanges from a few weeks ago. Our interactions, though few, are all positive. Unfortunately, they are few, and mostly centered around family business. I really have no idea where I'm at, but I do realize that I'm still very early in this marathon. I really want to see some positive movement, but I am gaining more patience. I also need to learn how to see changes and responses, and I'm just not too sure yet that I've gotten the hang of it.
So overall I feel like I'm doing well, and hoping that R will begin to move in a positive direction...Hope all is well for anyone reading:)
