T, my intent was not to bring you to tears, I would not want that ever.
I wanted to tell you something else. When my xh and I have had some discussions in the past regarding his affair, because as you know, he is crazy (lol), he told me a few things.
He said that while I was envisioning them doing all these things together, being so happy, that the reality was often much different.
Now I am not a fool. Clearly he isnt going to tell me when it was great. But, I did believe what he said because it made sense when I think back.
He said while it was a rush meeting with her and thinking I didnt know about it, there was also guilt on his part. And they would argue and she was insecure and she clearly had issues and so did he. So, it wasnt all butterflies and rainbows. It was often far from it.
So, try not to picture them on a beach like that. I used to try to picture them full of poison ivy and insect bites.
Oops, did I say that out loud? My bad!
You are amazing, T. Really and truly. I am honored to "know" you.
