A New Me 4

[jp787]

Okay, DBing will save your azz in the early days. But you have to do what works for you. If the 180 is not to ignore, then don't. Don't go crazy, still live your own life, GAL etc. but if a text is well received then do it. What I am NOT advocating is ramping up the text machine cuz one got good results. (are you listening in it? lol)
If you go back in my sitch, I was a text a holic. I said to H why don't we talk? He said it is easier to say things by text...now we talk, but the early days were defined by email and text.

BTW, you are not weak because you love your wife. Weak is not fighting for it, not standing when everyone says get out. Not facing your fears and weaknesses, those things are weak. And you are not.

Thanks. Idk what to do or not do. She changes daily and I never know what to expect. I guess when I think back to what urworthy and mach1 have drilled into my head I just need to worry and focus on me. Not worry about my W right now. If I continue to try to do all the right things, I wont be working on me. Man this is not only hard, it's terrifying.

I stayed home today, slept all day long. What a horrible waist, yet I was so down and out I didn't want to face anything.

Tomorrow get up and do what I need to do.

I have yet to really push forward and do what I really need to do. Fear and lack of energy, guess the only was is to push forward, at least a little more than I did the day before.

I think I believe I am lazy, thus I become lazy. Maybe, just maybe if I think I am productive and can do it, I will.