Bf... ((((HUGS))), this must be so hard for you. Please go outside and catch a breath. Do not let him see you get weak! Weakness (begging/pleading, etc) makes them RUN!
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)