Quote: is the doubt not there for many of us; that despite all of the hard work, the seeming progress, the good that has come out of the sitch's; that all of this might have just been for nothing?
Absolutely. That is a fear...BUT for some of us that fear IS NOT necessarily that IT will ever happen again...for some, at least for myself...my constant, looming, gut wrenching 'fear' is knowing myself well enough to know that I will NEVER really get past this.
There is to this day an all engulfing sense of sadness that comes over me at times. The sadness of knowing I'm no longer "special"...oh sure, I guess I can be made to feel 'special' again...but the FACT is,it just won't be the same now...you can't unring the bell.
I FEAR that as the days pass, and 'normalcy' returns to our daily routine...I find MYSELF less and less satisfied with what WE have. I'm beginning to ask myself, "Will all THIS pain, heartache and betrayal EVER be worth this patch quilt M we're trying to make of tattered cloth?" I fear, for me, it may not be.
This new phase that we find ourselves in IS a lot different then the trials and tribulations of the battle to get them home....because they're here now...BUT...is THIS stage we find ouselves asking...really, ultimately what's best for us?
