Mr 2.4, Thank you for the compliment. Some days I don't feel strong at all. All I want to do some days is hide under my covers. So now I know a broken heart takes a long time to heal.
Snodderly, July sounds do-able. At first, I thought, July! And then realized that is less than two months away. Incidentally, the end of July will mark one year from BD. But I am glad I asked. MLCers are not the only ones with a screwy sense of time and I needed the "baking time" so that I am not watching the pot boil.
In the last week or so, although I have thought of him, I really am not sure that I want to talk to him and that makes it easier not to contact him myself. I believed at the beginning of this that our bond (however untraditional) was so strong that surely we would survive this. All of us here probably thought the same thing. I no longer believe that. I have realized that it is easier to "act as if" we are not going to see each other again because now I am beginning to believe it.
This is not all bad, though! Lots of plans, places to see and things to do. All things that I would want to have accomplished before speaking to him again, anyway.
