you are having some powerful feelings and taking a whole nother "stand" here. i'm glad for you if it's giving you feelings of peace - getting used to the idea of divorce.
I am interested that you say 60-40 now. more weight on side of give it up. i am wondering myself lately where i stand with that.
i'm working today- so no real time to contemplate here- but i'll say off the top of my head i'm glad you're coming to peace with an idea of what you want. I'd say do not jump into anything rash quickly about you leaving the house- why would you want all the aggro and expense of an apartment or whatever you have in mind- if you'll end up financially at a big disadvantage - in something less than you have now for living space- and then, i hate to think it- but do -
out of site - out of mind. i think it would be very easy to just begin to cut you off money wise- if he's spinning out of control- hooked to ow - or whatever his status is. if he gets a giant dose of you as the "enemy" and so on- what is to guarantee that his good feelings and protective feelings about you and family remain? if you ended up in a legal battle about finances - house - support- etc. - it might be really bad. (can you tell i'm a major chicken, worrier, etc._
on that count- i'd say be very cautious. if you need a job in place to support yourself so you don't get plunged into a totally scary situation money wise and roof over your head wise- then try and have all that lined up before you just take off.
i know my own life & emotions are such a mess you're probably thinking- who is this to be giving advice. i'm just sayin- it's only my outlook- but been in law offices a long long time.
like when people die and all of a sudden - in the flash of an eye it's gone from sadness, commraderie, etc.- to everyone at each other's throat over money- possessions, etc.
people can turn in a flash. if you're not with them- you're against them. i try not to flatter myself that my h will be all sentimental over me. he'd probably let me end up homeless (maybe) and never give it another thought. all about money- for everyone. MAN- DO I SOUND NEGATIVE OR WHAT.
I'M JUST SAYIN - CONSIDER IT. YOUR H may be one thing not- and may be saying one thing now- but you're not out and on the opposing side now. consider possibility of a change when you declare war.
me- if i know anything bout this guy of mine. don't put his bck up- he'll dig in and i could probably die in his face and he wouldn't throw water on me if i were on fire. i may be exaggerating - maybe not. i'm going to assume the worse and if it's anything better- be pleasantly surprised.
okay- gloom and doom me off the face the - da da dummmmmm
MIDDLE SCHOOL.....
WHY - I WONDER MYSELF. MAYBE THE SHEER CHALLENGE of facing those little animals again and wondering how awful it could possibly get??? wierd huh? i'd have thought i'd run away screaming- i feel a bit like i can't let a bunch of stupid kids make me afraid. tho, i probaly should be. oh well- for this moment i'm still gonna give it a whirl...
some men climb the materhorn- me, i'm trying middle school insanity. wish me luck-
i still cannot hardly believe how rotten thise kids are - and the lack of decorum in the entire middleschool. ya gotta wonder what the heck is goig on with that???
oh well- sorry to be preachie- just be sure and be careful about having your ducks in a row. and why should you leave your home and comfortable place in life?????
tho, maybe to get away from it it's worth it?
just whammed this out- hope it makes sensa dn if it it's junk advice - please disregard it. i'm rushing like mad as usual.
xxoo (( )) and glad you're feeling good and in power here.
