Just because I don't cry for a day doesn't mean I'm any better emotionally. It seems to be twice as strong the next.
I haven't seen my S16 or D18 or W in almost 2 weeks. At least 10 days. Other than when I saw S & D and they shunned me. S has returned 2 text messages I think regarding his whereabouts.
W agreed we could meet this week to "discuss the situation" re:S and what's best for him. Without L or mediation. My assumption is she got L, so she wants what she wants and assumes I'll disagree and doesn't care what I think is best for S.
I will be asking also what her further intentions are with L, to possibly get some direct communication for once. I also want to know if she's considered the lifelong ramifications of a D.
I am using terse language to try to avoid getting emotional.
I am as fearful now as I was the first time we met after bomb drop.
C is unavailable this week due to my work schedule. Probably will visit pastor tomorrow. I'm looking for wisdom. I am mad as a hornet, still want to save the M.
Be strong. I have been there, and while it will be tough, the not knowing is even harder. Make sure that you state your best interest and don't be a doormat.
BD: 8/20/2012 W Files: 8/23/2012 S: 8/25/2012 (I moved out) D Final: 3/5/2013
