Tal -- First off, let me say I'm sorry you had such a bad PMA day...the anniversary stuff BLOWS..but you know that.

Next, though, I want to thank you for sharing your feelings...it helped me a great deal to read and reread and realize that I am NOT the only one who, despite having my m. back in a way that is wonderful, is still REELING (at times) from the blow. The fact that I am still so damn scared and sad sometimes sometimes depresses me SO MUCH..and, then I worry that my inability to have healed by now is dooming my m or something. Nice...I'm already feeling like crud and then I beat myself up for it! I start to wonder if there's something wrong with me and it just goes from there. I helps a lot to read that the depth of your feelings seems to mirror mine.

Then I'd like to say "kudos" once again to BOTH of you...you for the way that you approach Wolfie and him for his non-defensive response. I really like the way you confront things with him...I could learn a lesson or two!

And finally...yah, I understand your frustration at parts of his response...and you indicated that when you get back on the DB it will seem less so...yes...his work was different than yours and on his own timeframe...but you yourself have applauded his hard work...just a gentle reminder.

Sending you warm thoughts...and thanks.
Sage

Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.