first time(&last) & still need help

[albamarie]

Nero, I have been getting myself use to the word divorce. I am teetering closer to wanting an end, than to keep standing. It's like 60/40 now. Divorce was such an ugly word to me, now it sound like peace! It's still sad, but not heartbreaking sad, just unnecessary nonsense that leads to a dead end, wtf sad!

Insurance and cost of living, are big factors. I know h would end up in a hole somewhere, I used to care, now I just want him away from me. I was telling him to hook up with EA he said no, he's holding on to me, but not in a way that for me.

How does one deal w/health insurance in a D? If I don't get a D I will have to move out, that will be my only saving grace outside of ignoring him as much as possible. That is my stand today, ignore him until I really have to deal with him. Is that standing my ground, am I still letting him ride out his MLC, do I care any more about his junk? NO!