Good to hear you have some things going on. Oh yea, schools can be crazy. I homeschooled mine for the 3 yrs of middle school, it's to weird of a time.
I haven't been to concerned w/h and his issues. I have fallen out of L for him so much I amaze myself. If I do or say anything to him it's more out of necessity, or even because I'm forced to still have his face around. I really am not in L w/him anymore, I don't L him, I could walk away for good! I don't know nor do I want to think about if I just have simple L for him even as an ole dog, or would I not even cry at his funeral.
He put me here, he wanted me to back off of his life, so be it! So I don't care about his anger, or absence, if he's coughing too much, even if he's had dinner. It's freeing to cut it all out only because I was having that for an ungrateful person, with nothing in return. Soo much L to give and he spit at it, ok I get it!
He sees it, I'm not warm, just friendly, like to the mailman. He tried hugging me Sun night to sleep because he was cold, I backed off and said no, I said I'm cold, I said, no it's about me now!
There's gotta be soo much more out there than living in loneliness, waiting with real expectations, and giving more than you get.
It's are time Nero, we are stronger and moving forward. Like they said on Antonia's post, thanks, thanks for setting me free of your misery, and selfishness!
Amen! Bigger baby steps.......
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
