Just feel like giving up.

The only thing that keeps me going is the children.

The whole thing makes me [censored] loopy. I'm so tired. I'm so fed up. I have 250k of hours left in my life and why do I waste it on this crap.

I'm afraid of being alone. I thought I got lucky with my wife. I thought I fooled someone into loving me.

I just wish I had the means to be separated. When I think that I am detached enough she breaks it.

I love my kids, I love and hate my wife. I struggled in England; how the hell do I cope here?

Me: 42 W: 40
M: 18 T: 20
D13 D10 S7
BD: 8/2012
Still living together