I muttered " Im soooooooooo done with this" this morning for prob the 3rd time since this started.
Only 3 times so far? Dang man your good! I think that every other day! Actually I slipped and texted " F-it, I'm done" to wife during a text conversation this last weekend. I believe she knows I was just venting, yet I know those words stay in her mind. I have to stop that!
Originally Posted By: Positivespin
This happened as I was on the final leg of the 75 minute out of the way commute I have now because im trying to keep D3's family together......My MIL watches D3 two days a week. MIL house is right on the way to W's office.Its the complete wrong way for me. Ive made the commitment to myself to keep D3's schedule as unchanged as I can. I had a moment of weakness - now I have a much improved frame of reference.
Last evening when I picked up D3 at day care she was playing with dolls and a dollhouse. I asked her if I could join and D3's face lit up "Yes daddy- sit down here next to me".
D3 was in the middle of putting all the dolls to bed. She showed them all to me and lastly she said "This is the mommy and daddy dolly" " They sleep here in the big bed because they love each other".............
Oh that choked me up!
Nothing but honestly from that age! That must have been tough!
Originally Posted By: Positivespin
As to the email from yesterday JP and RT you are right it was fair.........
However, I read it from the perspective of my W telling me many times how nice she thinks it would be to not have to think about D3 every other weekend or only a few days a week.
My W will now be gone mem day weekend on a trip to NYC and for that week to CA- She is living it up....I dont know if she is taking someone or which one it will be- and im better not knowing.
Im focused on myself. Im at my strongest and most effective when I stay that course. It knocks me off course when im asked to help make her new life just that little bit better or easier.
Thanks JP and RT!
I can see how your frustrated about W and her choices and rightly so. Man all you can do is focus on you until she wakes up.
Glad to see you are coming right back up from the lows. It really puts a smile on my face when you talk about your interaction with your D. She sure is one loved little girl!
Keep plugging away!
M46,W41 D16,D18 M22,T25 BD 11/12 W moved out 01/13 Piecing 10/13 Divorced 01/15 "Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
