I’ve been feeling very angry recently and I’m afraid that I would say something that I will regret later.
Anger comes from pain. Pain can be visited on us by others, but anger is a choice we make. You need other ways to process the pain, that's where GAL comes in.
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I have hard time making myself to go out. Somehow I still manage to do it in spite of a strong depression that I seem to be experiencing.
Have you talked to a doctor about the depression? Many of us here had to get some help to get through the worst of it. Depression can really wreck your life and your chances of reconciliation. I went on A/D's when I hit rock bottom. It took a few weeks for them to really kick in, but when they did I felt much more like my old self. It became much, much easier to deal with things and get my life back on track. I stayed on them a few months and then tapered off, so it doesn't have to be something permanent.
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I am self-employed and need to start looking for a new contract, but I have no desire to do it right now. I’m exhausted and my head is not in a right place.
Sounds like you're in pretty severe depression right now.
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I think he also expects us to stay friends. But, at the same time he is not comfortable staying in the same house or condo with me. I don’t think there is OW, so I don’t understand why he can’t stay in the same house while he wants to be friends. I think this is very disrespectful to me.
It's difficult, but this is how it is with WAS's. They just don't want us like that anymore. They're done and moving on, at least so they think right now. It can change in the future, but for now this is the sitch we have to live with.
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I know if I follow my feelings right now, I will regret it later. This is so not good time for me to talk about the D...
Then tell him that. Tell him you're not in a good place mentally to work out the D right now and you need some more time.
