W texted me something and I took it as she was done. I don't think she meant that after texting her back.

When I read and interpreted it as she was done, I broke. My heart pounded, I was over come with nausea, I wanted to curl up in a ball and die.

So I am still shaky and not sure what she is saying, but I am now seeing I have to change. I have to really do this somehow, be ok either way, no matter what or I wont make it.

Thought I had made some progress, but I haven't.

I crumble at the thought of loosing her.

How do I break away and find myself and be OK with myself. I suppose I need to re read my threads as the answers are there.

I feel so alone. I really do hate this.

M46,W41
D16,D18
M22,T25
BD 11/12
W moved out 01/13
Piecing 10/13
Divorced 01/15
"Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can."
UrWorthy