Please help!

[AngieG]

I have been darker since my last posting...D16 moved back in with me when H went back overseas. She has been an angel. I have been completely upbeat about H and never said anything negative about him. She has had to deal with him herself with me not filtering him. She is so upset with the way he treats her and me. She asked me the other day how in the world I could stay married to him for so long. She told me to start dating. I can't. I still love my H. I guess we will see how he acts when he gets home on the 15th. I am taking his vehicle to a friends house to pick up and not telling him my new address yet. I don't want him at my house without me there. I want him to see how much I have moved forward, made a new home for myself and our girls. The dogs are settled and happy and my home is happy. I want him to miss that.

I have made my house mine. I've painted most of the house, changed out the electrical switches and plugs from the nasty 1970's brown. I have hung up 3 pictures and will hang up more this weekend. Its hard opening boxes, as each one still holds a memory, but I am doing it. The tears come less frequently and have been replaced with smiles and laughter with my daughters.

I know I'm rambling, but it does help to do that...

I have hope...No expectations anymore...Planning for a future with my girls...Maybe move to the Carribean...