Is this MLC or WAS? Don't know what to do...

[BrightFuture]

My H called me today. He is coming in town tomorrow and wants to meet on Wednesday to further discuss the matters concerning the separation of assets and D. He asked what I was up to and I told him that I was doing stuff and left it at that. He told me some details in his life. He’s got accepted for VA medical services and was very happy about it, he said that he now will be able to take himself of off our insurance. I congratulated him on this.

He is still going for D and there is no indication that he has any doubts at all.

I’ve been preparing myself for this. But, I think I’m going through the stages again. I’ve been feeling very angry recently and I’m afraid that I would say something that I will regret later. I don’t have any more hope for my M and I don’t have any expectations. I’ve been in the house for the last week. I have hard time making myself to go out. Somehow I still manage to do it in spite of a strong depression that I seem to be experiencing. My contract ended last week. I am self-employed and need to start looking for a new contract, but I have no desire to do it right now. I’m exhausted and my head is not in a right place.

It seems that H still expects me to fully cooperate in D and even help him to figure out the steps. I think he also expects us to stay friends. But, at the same time he is not comfortable staying in the same house or condo with me. I don’t think there is OW, so I don’t understand why he can’t stay in the same house while he wants to be friends. I think this is very disrespectful to me. I want to scream and tell him to get lost. I don’t understand what is happening to me. Only one month ago I was OK with being friendly with him, but now I’m total opposite. I want to kick him to the curb in the divorce process. He is not asking for much, and I will be in a lot better position than he. But, I want to leave him with even less. I know if I follow my feelings right now, I will regret it later. This is so not good time for me to talk about the D...

Sorry for the messy post. My thoughts are all over the place.

I need to some support, please…