Hey everybody!

Well, today is S5's official birthday! Can't believe he's 5, I can remember his birth so vividly. Where does the time go??? He's such a special little guy smile

And yes, I am glad that for now, he likes hot wheels of the $4.99 variety!

Onto the birthday party....

So H comes home around midnight on Saturday. While its not 2 or 3 in the morning, I don't know if I'd classify it as "early" either, especially if he was so tired. He didn't come upstairs to change when he came home - guilt perhaps???

Yesterday morning was a little stressful. H was supposed to pick up the cake. As the morning went on and he was still sleeping, I started to worry that we were cutting it close to our guests arriving. So, I packed up the kids and we went to get the cake.

To be honest, I was ticked. I felt like I always do everything and maybe he wouldn't be so tired if he had come home earlier.

About ten minutes after I left, he calls my cell. Wants to know where we are, and I tell him. He got upset, kept apologizing, said he felt bad, said I should have woken him up.

Now here's where the new TVS comes into play folks. The old me would have been mad and let him know it - then possibly pouted throughout the day.

But once I heard the regret in his voice, I got myself in check. I thought - I chose not to wake him, I chose the get the cake myself. And then I chose not to be mad about it. I told him I didn't want to wake him since he never sleeps anyway (which is true) and that picking up the cake was no big deal (which was also true - it wasn't like I was baking the darn thing!)

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The party was very nice. And Snodderly, you were right - he was much better than last year. Not 100% like himself, but he was friendly and social with everyone.

The family picture that we took was interesting - he didn't look like the alien but not quite himself either - maybe someone in between?

At one point during the party, he went to walk past me, and put his hand on my waist - he hasn't done this since bomb.

Also, H was goofing around, playing with S5's new wiffle ball pitching machine - he was the batter, and somehow I ended up in the outfield chasing balls. And S5 and S2 had a blast loading the machine and chasing the balls all over. It was very relaxed and fun.

Towards the end of the party, H said he was getting tired. His eyes were all red and weary looking. Once our guests left, he took a little nap. When he woke up, the text fest began!

He was preoccupied for the rest of the evening. Very itchy too.

I was in bed for a little while when he came up to the bedroom. He said he just wanted to thank me for everything. I said he didn't have to thank me, I was happy to do it. He said he did want to thank me, that he knew I did all the decorations and gifts and everything. That he knew S5 appreciated everything for his party.

So all in all, it was a good day with a good party. S5 had a great time, and that's what really matters smile

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I have been thinking about trying to prepare myself for two things that couid get thrown at me since OW decided to have her little pep talk with me...

1. She confronts me and confesses
2. He confronts me and confesses

The times I have done the worst during this whole time are the times I have been caught off guard. I don't want to be surprised by either one of these things.

Just going over different scenarios in my mind right now...

Gotta pack lunches and give baths now - Hope everyone is having a good Monday smile


Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me

~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."