7 months since BD and not sure where to go next

[AM2012]

Thank you. I will definitely try your suggestion. If he says no to me that doing it will be too weird or awkward, what do I do next?
I am not trying to be cynical here but the changes if him saying no are much greater than him saying yes. I think he's terrified. Yes it will be werid since its been long.

Also won't this put a lot of pressure on him to " perform". Remember its been 6 years.

I was debating about having us see a sex therapist if we get to that point.
Have you spoken to anyone else on this site who had gone this long without it?

Yes I have owned up to me rejecting him. I have apologizes several times and did truly mean it, however he does always say I can't imagine what this did to him. He said it made him feel like he was dirty and gross everytime I rejected him. He said he felt worthless.