Just an update from yesterday i know im under moderation and the reply was not posted before i made arrangements to see my XW and go over my list of items that i need to own up for in this list of items where things that I did or ways i acted to hurt my wife.
I wrote everything down in a book and i respectfully asked her if she would mind if i read them to her she said yes. I went through my list and at the end asked her for forgiveness and she said I forgave you along time ago and came over and gave me a hug.
We talked and cried and I told her that i want to be here for her and hear her not just listen to her. At some point and time in the conversation she said I dont know if I want to get back together Im scared and I said I totally understand and said im not asking you to come back but if we worked on things and it happened good even if it took 2 years im good.
Then I told her Im taking my kids to Diseny World, and she said i knew it if you do that that will hurt me more then any of the hurt you have caused me in the past 15 years. I said OK would you like to come? Her response was no your only say this because its an after thought i said no i called your dad and invited him and your mom to come along with us if they would like, and i also told him i was going to ask her. My kids are very close to grandma and grandpa and grandpa isnt in the best of health so i want to make some good memoeries with grandparents and us.
Thanks and GOD BLESS all of you!!
I hope I didnt confuse this post if so im truly sorry i just cut and pasted it over here in htis forum and thanks to JP787 for posting my first three posts.
