It would probably be a good idea for you to start a thread in the Newcomers (or possibly MLC) forum as those tend to have more activity and you may get more support. You could also continue to post on either of your original threads above, if you would like to do that.
I do understand that you want your ex back, and that COULD happen. It is going to be very important for you to come to terms with that possibly not happening.
In order for your ex to consider getting back together with you, she will have to have done what she needed to do to figure out her own life, she will have to believe that there has been positive changes in you and that they are permanent, so things don't go back to the way they were, and finally, she will have to begin to connect with you again, which may take a long time, if it happens at all.
I suspect she is still very aware that you are not done and that you haven't moved on. And, you may still be coming across as pursuing her, which could continue to be pushing her away from getting to close to you.
What are the positive changes have you made in yourself over the past 2 years?
