Hi Snodderly and MizJ, always great to hear from you!
If someone were writing a literary novel about my life right now the author would not even have to use creative licence with the weather to match my moods. Our winter here has been very very long (seriously snow still on the ground) but the sun is coming through! Yes MizJ I love to read (almost anything) but have had a bit of trouble concentrating lately. But there is nothing like a good book.
So yes I am doing OK. There are some rough areas but I am learning. Living with depression is something else I never thought I would experience. Not at all what I thought it would be like. There are little joys everyday. The most recent was helping a fledgling bird who thought I was her mom and did not want to leave my hands.
No word from xSO. I am beginning to feel a bit ambivalent about hearing from him. The longest time we ever went without speaking was about six weeks. We were not living together at the time. We had a fight about something. I was going through a career setback so I am sure I was not pleasant to be around. At the most difficult times of my life it seems that he has always cut and run. Anyway it took six weeks for him to finally make contact. I know he remembers this time frame and I wondered if that would be the case now.
I know he remembers because it was the only time that I did not cave. I do not have the ability to hold a grudge or be angry for long. It was one of his complaints about me. How I could blow up like a volcano but then be fine a little while later when he wanted to stay angry.
My plan was to wait out the six weeks at least (another week and a half) and then decide from there.
Snodderly, MizJ asked a good question. Is there a point when I should consider contacting him? When has too much time gone by?
Thanks much!!
PS. So I oozed my geek vibe, did I MizJ? No getting away from it I guess.
