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I've also been thinking that if H continues to make backhanded comments like that shoild I just ask him to leave for the week & go stay with his mom? He was suppose to be gone this week anyhow. Maybe present it to him that if he is so done like he says then he should just leave for a week or so to clear his head & see if that is truly what he wants?

That may push us to the actual steps of seperation though & I'm not ready for that. I don't know? What would we tell the girls? Would we tell them where he was or tell them he was gone for work? H has said in the past that if was to leave then that would be the end. He doesn't want to put them through any back & forth. Now that I think about it, that's probably why he is still sleeping in our bed…because he doesn't want the girls to know about what is going on & if he wasn't sleeping in our bed there would be a lot of questions. If this is the case, why can't he just tell OW that?

My head sure is spinning & for me to get back to where I was last week mentally it is obviously not helping. Ugh.