Moving forward with my life

[cbtdad]

Ok. So W isn't coming home tonight. She has decided to stay another night with OM. At least the lying about it for now has stopped.
She called me about 20 mins ago and said she would be at my apartment by 630am to pick up son. I said can you at least be honest with me about OM beig there. She said he wasn't there, but since she decided to stay that she called him and he is on his way. At that point I asked if they were in a R and she said I guess. I said thanks for being honest about it finally. I asked a couple questions about things I had guessed about before and she came clean to it all. She said it did start at end of January just as I thought.
She said she couldn't believe I wasn't upset and angry and it just seemed awkward. I told her that I already knew most of it and that it was the lying that was upsetting me the most. As well as the putting things in front of our son.
I reminded her that I have never waivered from saying I would try to make our M work by going to MC or doing something else, but just as I told her Friday as long as she is involved with someone that obviously can't happen.
I also told her I'm not sure in want that anymore or if it actually could work because I'm unsure if i could ever trust again.
I feel relieved right now and I'm not sure why. I'm sure I will go trough a roller coaster of emotions, but I will try my best to focus on me. That's what needs to be done anyways. I have a lot of work to do on me before I'm involved in a R again with my W or anyone else for that matter.
This will sure make it easier for minimal contact though. Lol