Still treading water #4

[Grizz]

Thanks for the encouraging words. I need all of the encouragement that I can get right now.

W did put down a deposit on an apartment today and will be moving out around June 8th. Will file soon after that.

I haven't cried in a long time. I have cried three times today. Never in front of W though. I am a mess. She has hurt me so bad that I don't even want to be around her. However, I did not give her the silent treatment when she got home. I actually went to a buddies house for a bit then brought dinner home with surprise dessert for the girls and my W. We all ate together and the evening was pleasant. She went downstairs to the couch to sleep and that was the third time that I lost it for the day. I layed in bed and cried like a baby.

Tomorrow is a new day. I just don't see it getting any better until she moves out. Then i picture life being terrible for a while. Then as time goes on things will have to start getting better. I just hope that is sooner rather than later. June 8th will be hanging over my head for the next month. Every day is one step closer to her being gone. It's all so sad.