But not given up in the total sense, I am not saying I have given up on my W or M but I feel like i have given up on the idea that this change will happen soon and that I can "expect" my wife to see that I am a changed man. I dont really care anymore what she thinks, she can paint whatever picture of me she wants to. This is her choice.
I know who I am now and I now that there is potential for me to be happier than I was in my M and happier than I have ever been. I know that everyday is a opportunity to make improvements about myself, to be more positive, to give more love and to treat my W with more respect and compassion regardless of whether or not she accepts as genuine or fake. I will accept the sadness that still lives in my heart, but not dwell on it and not let it control how i live from now on. There is potential for more happiness and I am on mission to bring that into my life, with or without my W.
I feel like i have been set free in a way. I think i have detached. I have no expectations about my M anymore, I will continue to be true to myself and live life positively....my story will unfold and I will accept it as it presents itself.
Me - 37 W - 37 M -5 T - 15
S=5 S=3
Seperated - 12/12 BD - 20/03/13 Still seperated - no R or M talk yet.
