First Post--2d troubled marriage

[2X Divorcee?]

Just journaling...got out and did alot of GAL stuff this weekend...hiked to snorkel spot Saturday and deep sea fishing Sunday....eating fresh tuna tonight.

Still stinging from the loss mentioned above. Talking myself out of believing she's probably telling lies about me wrt the break-up to gain supporters. Does she have a boyfriend? Why did this happen? Will it happen again? Should I contact someone who knows her for a confidential chat? Who is encouraging her?

These questions take their turn to torment me in my sleep (or non-sleep). I have enough self-control to NOT act on any of it. Most present no-win situations for my PMA and for any hope of getting her back. I know it's just the pain of the break up working its way through me.

I'm not contacting her at all until my DB coach session later this week.

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