The good thing that I have noticed lately is that although I still think of her frequently, I don't have the emotional reaction to those thoughts that I did previously. Now they come and they go. My best friend told me last week that he's actually amazed at how well I've handled this. He says that not once have I talked about having maybe made a mistake or that I should try and get her back. It's true, I haven't. I have those thoughts sometimes but then I ask myself what would be different? She'd still have a stressful, unstable life...do I want another piece of that? No thank you. Would she be more independent and less controlling? No way Jose! So what would be the point? That usually helps when I have those brain cramps. But, in reality, I'm doing OK. I went to the baseball game today. I'd missed the entire season last year because the only day SDA Lady had to date in the summer was Sunday. So, this year I go to the games and enjoy. I do what Whatis wants to do!
