[in_it]

I think I've made a turn with my mindset. I've always known how toxic it is for me to focus on H & OW. I've done pretty well at not letting it affect my stand or let H know how down I truly am.

Well, you see when really reflecting & looking back on last week. I've realized what I've always known. Knowing & worrying about their R & always comparing it ours is not working for me. Last week I didn't let thoughts of H or OW creep into my head & he was even out of town. I didn't freak out until his 'delayed flight' and turned in to me spinning all night long.

Like uRworthy says…I'm going to let him blow in the wind.

My goal this week is going to be to focus on only me or my girls. If H wants to involve himself in our lives then great. I'm going to try to almost act as if he is gone & get back to the mindset I had last week.

I'm going to use time to my advantage & take it day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute.