What I mean is I don't really feel as though I should have to pretend i'm ok with something i'm not. Doesn't mean i'm right just means that i'm not ok with discussing her moving out. I do understand though, that it can come of as brash or belittling. By "kill switch" I mean go into protect me mode and shut down on the whole idea of leaving myself open to be let down. This is extremely painful and I just don't like it. This is new for me... I don't want to put out the wrong impression of me, maybe I could have chosen a better word rather than humor. I just know that the brevity of this situation has taken ever ounce of energy I have... The serenity prayer has never been so real to me as it is at this point in my life. I'm trying.
As far as recognizing my errors, trust me they are very evident. The fact that i'm using this medium is progress in itself. I'm even keeping a journal and it has been very cathartic. Thanks for your advice.
