Still treading water #4

[Grizz]

Fartiltre, thanks for reading my post. I don't mind at all to read yours and I will try to get to it tonight. I have trouble giving advice though seeing that my sitch is not in a good place. Actually it seems to now be on the fast track to D.

W is gone to look at an apartment right now and likely put down a deposit. She asked me before she left if I thought she should do a six month lease or a year. A year lease is cheaper. I said that I didn't want her to leave at all but if that was going to make her happy then that is what needed to be done. I then said, well maybe 6 months of separation may be just what we need.

W: it will all be over alot sooner than six months
Me: what
W: the D
Me: ok
W: do you think we are just going to get remarried after 6 months?
Me: I don't know what the future holds.

So, it's not looking very good for me. I am here with my girls and I should be just enjoying time with them but I am absolutely heartbroken. For them and for myself. My oldest will be an absolute basket case when we tell her. I honestly feel sick. I lost 20 pounds after BD (didnt need to). I have that same feeling now that I did then. I sure as he!! can't afford to lose anymore weight.

Anyway, thanks for checking in. Hopefully I didn't throw you into despair with this crap. I logged in to post this update anyway and read your message. Bad timing I guess.

I will read your sitch. I just need to take a deep breath for a bit. Hang in there. Sorry to be such a downer today especially to someone looking for help.