And please - don't read TOO much into people's posts. When some one here takes the time to write you a page long whack with a 2 x 4 - it's usually because they really care about you and think they can give you a useful perspective on something. Otherwise they wouldn't waste their time and energy.It may or may not be correct - after all, we're not in your life, and we only have your posts to go on - but don't assume that just because somebody gave you a whack, that they didn't have your best interests at heart.
I think the flowers are proof by the way that your abstinence from fish-eating is getting results