Hit hard still taking another step forward.

[stilllookingup]

IMHO I think you fear too much how your W would react/think about what you say or do. I'm not perfect by any means and I don't always do or say te right thing. But I know I can't live fearing all the time what my H would think.

You've come a long way and have become a much better person since DB-ing. You don't have to lie about anything that you are doing to become a better person. Just a thought.