?!? "I don't wanna tell her in case I don't do it" ?!? Then you are not really committed to doing it in the first place. Either tell her and do it or don't tell her and mention it later if you really did it.

Actions speak louder. That's how I've been overcoming my fears lately. I just do it.

M37 H36
M8 T12 inc 3yr L-dist
7/12:H broke down
10/12:H dad D frm W4. BD soon after
1/13:H wants to leave
2/13:H gpa passed. Feels closer but H still leaving
3/13: S begins