MLC by MIL death/daughter car accident/new job

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Reading Reading Reading. So much good stuff on this board. Well I never sent the card. I have for when the time is right. My D talked to X on phone today and I over heard her say "Yeah she lost 2 lbs." So he asked about me...Good right?

He doesn't have facebook (so he says) but someone always seems to update him about some of my comments. I never mention him, but somethings may elude to him. Never directly and never anything untrue or mean. Anyway, I have since stopped including him in my thoughts and postings. I've been putting up more positive things in my life...like how much I've been running and pictures of the Awesome place I go running at. And all the wonderful things that are going on or that I'm doing now.

Just planting seeds to let him know I've moved on. I haven't posted anything about dating or being out. Not ready for that mess! But my pictures that people post of me are of me laughing and having fun! Good cause I am!

I still don't know exactly when he is visiting either the memorial day weekend or the following first weekend in June. Either way I'm not thrilled. Memorial Day weekend were having a picnic at the lake with everyone from the recovery center so it'll be all of D friends and my coworkers. Not sure about him tagging along.

And the first weekend in June my D is going to participate in a surfing event! We have done this the past 2 years and its something to see! I would great if he came but once again it will be all of D friends/families and my coworkers since we are a supporting sponsor of the event.

I don't think I can avoid him this time. ARGH!! anxiety attack over this. So I'm just trying to set up the chain of events and the right conditions to show him that I have made major changes to my life... the weight watchers, the running, and of course being the person I truly am...WONDERFUL! hahah.

BTW no word on his trip to Europe although my S said that his dad is pretty excited. It'll probably be end of May and he'll choose Europe over his visit with D and say he'll visit soon...jerk!

He also mentioned to D that he's been trying to attend church while he is home. He was always involved with church and he truly is a good christian, at one time. How he can live with what he did is besides me. I always end my text or emails to him with "Find God again! You were a better man when God was in your life." Which is true. He got lost and started questioning his faith after D accident. Maybe finding God again he'll questions his own actions in life.

Any thoughts or suggestions leading up to his visit?