Almost two years and still stuck in limbo

[newman7977]

Right on papa! Ok guys take it easy on me ok this is a 180 for me and very uncomfortable cooking unless of course I bust out my weber grill

A little journal on my sitch. Yesterday Newman accomplished a lot of things...well for one thing I've got my ingredients to cook today and the other I finally had time to teach s14 to ride a bike. I also bonded with S14 and went out to dinner. Waitress keep referring to us "gentlemen", I'm thinking to myself man my once a baby s14 is really growing up, voice change and all going to high school next yr...boy time flies.

S14 is stubborn and need a lot of tough love but he comes around. So after his resistance We finally went and he learned to ride a bike. I even ordered it online so for summer he can go with me on my bike rides. He is so excited!

Since the bomb I found a lot of time for the kids. Pre bomb, well were alway busy--W has big family and pretty much every weekend there's a gathering...now I'm realizing part of that took away some of my free time with the kids. That's where w & s3 went yesterday and I wasn't really in the mood to fake it yesterday being a perfect family. S18 well you can guess hung out with her friends. She's such a good kid, got some scholarship money for college helps but I still have to dish out the remaining balance.

My interactions with my W are pleasant. Her coldness is somewhat gone. I woke up in the middle of the night not realizing I had put my arms around her. Last time that happened my arms basically flew out the window by her pushing it away woke up the living crap out of me so these days I will quickly move my arm. I guess unconsciously after sleeping together for 18 yrs my arm grew a mind of its own and find its way around her. Well last night she didnt push it off her arm was even on top of mine.

I know this could be temporary or short live but I know this when the coldness start is when she's communicating with OM..just my observations since the bomb. Now I'm not making a blanket statement but in my sitch this is what's happening. I'm not saying she loves me or whatnot but I just feel she definitely treats me better. It just feels the sitch improve without OM in the picture.

Well I will let you chef buddies know what happens to my cooking today.

Newman