its been a busy few weeks for me. the surgeon cleared me to go back to work with no restrictions!! then my boss said he didnt know if he had a job for me. "we will see how it goes while we are slow" he says. oh well, i'm not getting angry. he is like that, never gives a straight answer. there are other contractors looking for help, and i am good at what i do. plus, i can take my contractors test whenever i want to.
i've been in the mental health groups twice a week with IC once a week. on the thursday in IC the lady wants to tell me she feels that i need to work on being nicer to people and open up. she feels i have major trust issues. because i said i didn't like it when a guy i work with cries at work im rude. that could offend people who cry. i guess my feelings are not as important as other peoples. and my group is 8 women and one other guy. i dont trust women very much for obvious reasons. i am working on that. once i talk to them more, i start to trust if i feel i should. we will see how this goes. i told her if it made her feel better, i could just pretend and act like a model group member. everyone would then be happy, except me. so now i have authority issues too..lol tell me something i don't know.
on the flip side (i have court every thursday where the judge checks our progress in the program) the judge was full of compliments about my progress. he said the issues brought up from IC were discussed with him, and he feels like i am handling things in a very mature manner. he said to not worry if i dont progress as fast as others, just be honest and keep trying. i like this judge. he is scary smart and i would never play poker against him..lol
still havent got my tax return and i finally found out why. i am getting audited. my ex called the irs and told them i am illegally trying to claim my son. it was court ordered in my divorce that i claim him and she claims my daughter. she claimed them both and i think is trying to cover her butt. oh well, it will all work out. i will just get my money later than most people i guess.
We haven't had snow all week and its starting to warm up. I have a membership at the YMCA that i am using alot now. my shoulder feels good, so operation beastmode is back in effect. it feels so good to be able to work out again. i find that i am so much happier when i can go take out frustrations on the weights and the track.
