Happy Birthday to your son. I hope he has a great day. I'm sure you've got everything under control and your home looks great.
I think your h will be a bit different from last year. He's not going to be the old self, but he will be in a better state of mind (hopefully).
Yes, miracles do happen and I'm hoping that one comes along for you and your family.
Enjoy your day! Take plenty of photos!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.