i fairly twitch i want to just out with it - soooo bdly. then remind myself i can't actually afford myself - and i really really need to go slowly and prudently and not burn any bridges before I AM ABSOLUTELY ready. it might be smart or dumb- i'm not sure. it's soooo me- who i am deep inside- prudent to the bone when it comes to impending danger.
i see him as more of a threat alot - than anything else. threat to my happiness - roof over my head - welfare.
Yeah, I'm right there too. I sometimes think the financials are the only thing keeping me tied to him and 'nice' at the moment.
so anyway- i worked another day. i keep teling myself it's something- perhaps it could turn into a fulltime job. when i interviewed with the superintendent of schools (a nice guy- we got on good) he said same ting. that people find it sometimes does. it's not much- but it's more than a week ago- working when they call.
This sounds like something to build on. So happy to hear you have some options developing.
i'm going to go find a few garage sales and garden while it's cool and nice - if i don't do it in the morning when i'm at my best - it s not likely to get done.
I love gardening. It's the one thing that stops me from thinking/churning!
keep around- perhaps we can fortify each other into getting the heck out there in life and doing it.
Sounds like a plan!
what are you doing about gal thing?
Not much. Busy with kids and work.
how are you feeling about your h?
I don't want anything to do with the new him. If and only if he ever returned to a reasonable semblance of a good man would I consider him coming back into our family.
any insights or new detachment tips to offer? are you feeling and getting a bit more detached and less decimated? it's taken me a long long time - and even still i have trouble letting go and thinking of never seeing him in my life again.
Yeah, My only thought is that it just takes time. Consistent horrid behaviour on XH's part helps me to detach, too.
i'm, not sure- what's your position on being in each other's lives as something different - not a mate? i'm pretty much thinking we're "in love" or we're not happening. he thinks (apparently) we should stay in each other's lives and be friends or something- what a joke.
I agree. Either he comes back as H and father or no role for you, sorry bud. My preference would be never to see him again.
near as i can figure? wtf- what's your sitch with that? maybe you've got something you're thinking that will help me find my way?
Wish I did! I'm trying to get past resentment cause that keeps me stuck. But it's hard. This is all so unfair. But maybe have a look at what Antonia posted today in this forum. She really has her stuff together. 3 years on and she's back in charge of herself.
