If it were possible, I would go get Meredith right now and we'd be on our way to you! I'm happy that you let go and wrote that post, and I hope getting the words out brings you some peace. It was as if I could feel some of your pain right through the words. I hate that we're all in this, Betsey. But, I'm glad we're all in this together. I hope that today somehow helps your tomorrow. Biggest Hugs ever.