Your insight is very valuable - I can barely take care of myself at this point & I def don't want to have any kind of R talk for fear of H mean mugging me & making me feel worse than I already do which is pretty bad. I think that will be on hold until I am stronger. So strange I feel I have been in this nightmare for months but I just looked at the date H left - April 13. I also feel badly because My parents live in Maryland (I am in NewYork) & I used to call them all the time but now I don't because I want to spare them my pain & I can't always hide it. I sent them some cards 4 their 60th Anniversary but I couldn't even call them because I am too upset. Do u know a way to reassure family & spare them pain when u are so upset & almost suicidal (on Cymbalta now - that & this board & GAL is helping) that you can't call without breaking down?
Me 54 H 53 T 19 M 15 (2nd both), 0 kids, 2 dogs, 1 horse H open heart surg12-12-12 H dropped bomb 3-5-13 H moved to lounge ~3-13-13 H rented house w/friend 4-6-13 H moved out 4-13-13
