How long does it take to be able to care about anything again? I can make it to work & get the bare minimum done there (I am a geneticist, so long term experiments anyway) but at home I barely can do laundry, I barely eat & feed my dogs, I board my horse so all I have to do is show up & ride - barely do that, I have a mountain of mail that has just piled up since my WAH left with all kinds of bills & prob important stuff in that mountain but I just can't do it. I used to be Susie Homemaker & show my horse every weekend. I have only vacuumed once since he left (middle of April). Why am I paralyzed? He showed up at home a little while ago & cut the grass so I went out & pulled weeds & he said hi & I said hi & I went back inside. I didn't box up his clothes yet just because I feel like making a bonfire out of them instead so I figured I had better not deal with that right now. I had to take down the photos of him because every time I looked at them I thought how weird I don't know that person at all after 19 years. Thankfully no kids. The people on this board are kinder to me than someone I spent 19 years with - go figure.
Me 54 H 53 T 19 M 15 (2nd both), 0 kids, 2 dogs, 1 horse H open heart surg12-12-12 H dropped bomb 3-5-13 H moved to lounge ~3-13-13 H rented house w/friend 4-6-13 H moved out 4-13-13
