PM.... really can appreciate and relate to your post... We're in the process of filing and will have the 365 waiting period to be able to make it final before the D becomes official.
I like to think of that I've given in, but not given up. You've got to essentially move out of the way to allow the process to happen. When my wife first told me ILYBINILWY in the Fall, I was shocked and it took a few months before I started to find different resources to gain strength, perspective, understanding to process all this.
We were scheduled to go to Retrouvaille in March, but she pulled the plug and said we're getting divorced at that time. That weekend was probably the best weekend in my life because after much hurt, agony, all the negative feelings of where I messed up, blah blah blah.... I realized that I can either live like that or chose to grow and learn from all this. It started slow, but continues to be a self-improvement project like I've never know and I am loving it.
The Mrs. moved out officially last week and we're sharing our kids 50/50. First week of that was good because we had been living separate (kids at home with she and I taking turns with them 50/50). Without this move, I know she can't fully go through what she needs to IF there is a chance of R. With me focusing on myself, I'm excited to see who I can become for me and my beautiful kids and if she's not interested as I use DB techniques and other things that I'm trying to implement so be it. I'm just sure as heck going to be sure I can sleep every night knowing that I've done my part to my commitment to our marriage.
The way I look at it is I know good and well the Big Man upstairs brought us together once and if He wants us back together it will happen.....
Good luck!!!
Me 42, Wife 39; Married 16; Together 17; Kids: D13, S10 Wife asks for Divorce: 03/19/13 Reconcile: 07/07/13 Round 2 Starts: 02/19/17 Apartment Life: 04/21/17 PA Confirmed: 05/23/17
