How can I keep putting myself through this? I'm afraid to go to sleep because I don't want to wake up.
....I have to stop thinking about this. I do so good for so long & then backslide & it seems like it takes days to get over it emotionally.
Good morning InIt Late night for you. You know what I realized when I re-read all of my posts and the advice everyone has given me? We move at lightening speed compared to our spouse's emotionally, spiritually, and in terms of growth.
It's not a bad thing, every relationship has that dynamic. It's one of the reasons we all found ourselves here. Then we do the work, get healthier, feel stronger and they do another dumb, typical WS thing and it hurts because we have brought them along in our hearts and heads to where WE are today.
Expectations are what hurt us. He cannot hurt you. Your unfulfilled expectations of him can devastate you.
There is no reason to confront him. He is still your WH, doing WH things. The InIt train is pulling out of the station. Make him wish he was on board!
Me(F):40 WAW:44 T:13yrs M:9yrs BD:2/12 (I saw a text) ILYBINILWY: 5/12 PA admission: 12/12 (began 3/11) S:2/13 Moves in w/AP D begins: 7/13 W moves home to R: 10/13
Late night for you. You know what I realized when I re-read all of my posts and the advice everyone has given me? We move at lightening speed compared to our spouse's emotionally, spiritually, and in terms of growth. 
