I'm too trusting. His flight was not delayed. He was with her. I'm so ticked off right now. I knew my gut instinct was right. I hate myself in a real bad way right now. How can I keep putting myself through this? I'm afraid to go to sleep because I don't want to wake up.

I have to think about my girls & baby. I can't wait to see how he acts tomorrow! I'm sure it will be business as usual.

I am so freaking mad. I have to stop thinking about this. I do so good for so long & then backslide & it seems like it takes days to get over it emotionally.

Tomorrow is a new day, I CAN do this.

I want to confront him about it so bad. Somebody please tell me all the reasons on why that is not in my best interest. Thank you.


M 34
H 35
D 7 D 6
M 10 T 14
Pregnant w/ boy/girl twins-due 12/2013
BD 12/15/12