Confused about what I want

[BRNR]

Thanks for the advice Snodderly and H1. Unfortunately it doesn't matter anymore...

My monthly Bomb Drop just came through. Email was titled DIVORCE STUFF. H wants to change our financial agreement AND take full custody of S9. He sent me this in an email at 4pm est. when I would see him at 6pm to do kid exchange.

I acted as if I had not seen it when he picked the boys up as it is his weekend with the kids.

So I guess as I had felt and said in a prior post this morning, it seemed things were getting worse and they are...

I talked to an attorney friend briefly and he said that I will probably have to file (if H hasn't already) for the divorce now, because he has said and done some things that I won't be able to protect unless I do.

Is this really the end??? It sure feels like it...and I am an emotional mess because of it. It feels like he ripped my heart out like the day he walked out. I was really hoping and praying that my marriage, my family, could be saved.

Where does one go from here.....