Divorced-not done-But wondering ?

[JJAC2005]

I think I may be in need of a few lessons in detachment?
Any suggestions?

I seem to be getting a life ok (albeit alone)….however I am doing a lot more social things and events.
I am still continuing to improve on me and my life…my 180’s…ect
My biggest concerns are that I am still sad about my loss most days (I think of this way more than I want or need to)..…I was thinking or hoping that it would have improved more than what it is by now ….but since the beginning of the nice weather I have been uncovering reminder after reminder of the ex and the kids (seems typical of grief the first year)….the good I take away from all of the pain is that my love for them is deep and very real…..and I know if I am given a second chance I will have all of my ducks in a row, and it will be hard not to notice the changes or improvements…that is if I even get one. (goal “numero uno”, be the type of man that only a fool would walk away from)
I find myself often engaged in some “grandiose” type fantasies about doing this or that and having things play out just perfectly to have my wife and family back….but I keep it all in my head, knowing full well the rules of pursuit and its more likely outcome….lol
At this point, I am still a mostly silent LBS with a “hope” that things change sooner than later….but then again….I know that later would be better for everyone….its just really hard when you ache to be loved and love again that which had gotten so messed up and lost
So…I need a little encouragement, if anyone has anything to pass my way that will help……Thanks