Hoper1's story..

[hoper]

Hello,


Journaling...

So after h decided s needs a vacation and I relented we have started to plan for one..
He suggested I visit my sis after we spend our family vacation as c advised..
I told me will visit my sis prior to family vacation and join him with s later..

Did not understand his irritation with the suggestion ,. However as I have apprehensions of him locking me out ( nothing to suggest really ) so want to arrive back with him..

I will be traveling exactly one year post BD .. Ironic.. Last year when I was completely blindsided never imagined how crazy the year would get.. Whenever I hit rock bottom it did manage to get worse.. Though am standing one year thereon.. Can't say what the future holds for me..

H is stepped up his interest is s .. Boredom, guilt.. No idea what.. Is this a guilt induced vacation ? Is he planning one with ow? No idea but can't stop the wondering..
Gal includes learning to play piano, biking find both these calming and soothing.Met 2 of my friends who know about my sit.. Good fun.. Generally did some male bashing..M is tough no matter what..

S really keeps the fun and the funny quotient high.. Do wonder whether God gave me this miracle to weather all storms..feel truly blessed.

He can start dancing to any music literally anywhere .. On the road .. Though cant dance to save his life but will dance..

Also thankfully h has losT his moustache .. Overall a less anxious week.. Managed to put away the sadness too..
Cheers..