Some positive news! I'm currently on my trip visiting S & D and helping W with moving into her smaller flat. We've had some good progress and she recognized my efforts. She's still being cautious as she's said that I may be changing now, but will I be consistent in the future? I've promised her that I will continue with my efforts and won't let my old ways come back. I said that she doesn't have to take my word, but I'll prove it with my actions. She's said that she doesn't want to give up on us but that she needs to get herself figured out first. I went through the same process so I understand. I've proposed another visit in June and she said anytime I want to come up- even for a weekend, that I'm welcome. She's agreed to read 5 LL also. We're working on our communication to improve and we'll start with reading the same book and discussing it. I'm feeling better, but I know this is the first step to building our relationship back up.
